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Jealousy of Faith

I feel like an ass. I upset my friend Lilla by being jealous of her faith in her beliefs and acting like a dick to her. I get like that sometimes, and I hate it every time I do. You see, the reason is that I really don't know what to believe, and despite what my Goddess Shao'Kehn tells me, I often get into these thoughts of maybe I'm just trying to justify a bunch of things, justify some things about myself by attempting to believe these things that I know are true because I see them in so many places.

So in short, I'm so unsure and chaotic about what to believe, that I get jealous of people who have faith in their beliefs. Whether the atheist or the theist, relativist or objectivist, I bump around so much that people with set beliefs make me jealous.

Thus, I would like to officially apologize again (in public this time) to Lilla for acting as I did. I'm sorry, Lilla, I didn't mean to get jealous of you. Please accept my apologies. :-(

Chaotic Blessings;
---Fay

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evil_prevails
Aug. 25th, 2004 04:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, I have that. Getting jealous. Believing one thing and then the other. Just not getting jealous because of believing one thing and then another.

And, love, you don't need to justify ANYTHING.

Love you more than one-and-a-quarter times eternity,

Bart
fayanora
Aug. 26th, 2004 09:23 am (UTC)
I know, but I can't help feeling that way at times.

Thank you.

Love you like the Earth loves the sun;
---Fay
(Anonymous)
Sep. 7th, 2004 10:58 pm (UTC)
Apology to Lilla
((Fay)) Apology accepted, hon.
Love and peace,
Lilla
fayanora
Sep. 8th, 2004 09:48 am (UTC)
Re: Apology to Lilla
Yeah, I know. It says so in the entry above. :-)

Chaotic Blessings;
---Fay

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