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January 19th, 2010

Just a few minutes ago I was thinking about old-time armies and how food used to be a problem for them. Why, I don't know. I also don't know why that thought led to this one: that a tactical advantage in that kind of situation to having an army of cannibals would be that food becomes less of an issue - your soldiers can just eat the corpses of their slain enemies. Again, no idea where the hell this all came from. My brain is weird.

Hell, they could eat the corpses of their fallen comrades, too.

Peculiar development

I've been feeling a kind of apathy lately that's hard to explain. Usually when I feel apathy, I feel apathy. This time, I don't. Like I said, hard to explain. *Thinks* It's like, the usual kind of apathy I feel is from being emotionally burned out and/or repressing my emotions. This time is different. For the last few days I've been feeling almost normal. I don't know where the negative feelings have gone, and they don't feel like they're being repressed. I can usually sense when The Breaker has switched off my emotions, or shunted them behind a wall. Now whenever I've looked around I haven't seen any of the usual signs of my usual inner workings.

Put another way, apathy for me is usually a form of denial or numbness, either I'm pretending to not care or I'm worn out from caring but still care enough to keep the worn out feeling going. Now it's like I literally don't care one way or another anymore. Lately when I think about my situation, and how I should be doing more to fix it, it's with a detached sort of "Hmm, I should be doing such-and-such." I still can't get the energy or willpower to do these things, but it feels different now. Where before it had a note of depression to it, now it's as though I'm thinking about something completely unimportant. Like you might feel if you saw a piece of paper on the ground outside; you might momentarily think, "Oh, I should pick that up," but you don't, saying to yourself, "Nah, it's too far away; besides, it's bio-degradeable." The thoughts about my situation and how my life is going now feel like they have no more importance to me than considering picking up a piece of litter.

Thinking back, I don't think I've ever felt this way before. I think this is my first experience with true apathy.

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Writer's Block: Rotten tomatoes

What is the worst movie you've ever seen? Did you sit through it or walk out? What made it so dreadful?
Most definetely "2012: Supernova" That movie was made of pure failmantium, failmantium being a ball of fail so massive that it collapses under its own gravity like a black hole. Where to begin? The extremely unlikely plot of a supernova too far away to hurt us somehow heating up the earth's core and causing earthquakes off the richter scale that collapse into deep pits of molten lava, and how this is somehow caused by neutrinos? The way the protagonists miraculously escape one unlikely disaster after another *just* in the nick of time, in a way that's less coincidence and more "They're either the luckiest people in the history of the universe or the Gods are REALLY pissed at them, or both"? Or the fact there's like 3 or 4 black characters and one of them dies horribly, while all the white characters seem to be blessed by God to survive the most unlikely things? Or maybe how the roads are crumbling down into pits *right* behind them as they drive, for about 10 minutes of the movie, which I figure is about an hour for them, and then does the same thing as they take off in an airplane?

The whole thing is just horrible. To call it a turkey would be an insult to turkeys. It was a disastrous disaster movie from the Professor With Obviously Fake Russian Accent all the way to We're All Gonna Die Oh Wait Somehow There's A Happy Ending. Oh, and we can't forget the children being in constant peril, the fact that Idiot Who Can't Read "No Trespassing" Signs is their father, nor can we forget the Hippy Conspiracy Theorist Guy Who Knew This Day Was Coming And Just Happens To Have What The Protagonists Need To Survive But Didn't Try To Save Himself, the Token Black President, your always-entertaining Bumbling And Interfering Military People, and of course Stupid Rich People In Planes Being Assholes.

Its only redeeming quality was that it starred Brian Krause, who played Leo Wyatt on Charmed, as the main character. But it's well worth watching just to MST3K (Mystery Science Theater 3000) the crap out of it, like I did on Twitter when I saw it.

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