The Djao'Mor'Terra Collective (fayanora) wrote,
The Djao'Mor'Terra Collective
fayanora

Meme

From [personal profile] househesson

1. if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

My Dreamwidth/LJ.

Quoting househesson for this next bit:

Blindsight by Peter Watts is the best depiction of a multiple system we've seen in fiction, and a really good metaphor for how outside-of-normal-humanity we feel by way of the character Siri.

2. have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?

Nope. I doubt there's anyone in history who thinks like me. There may be some close contenders. Can't think of any offhand, though.

3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

I'll only do a few, because a total list would be probably 100 pages long.

A. Harry Potter series: Luna Lovegood, because I have lots of weird beliefs, have always been highly eccentric, was bullied for it in school.
B. Star Trek TNG: Lt. Cmndr. Data. Oh hey, an autistic kid relating to a being that just doesn't understand humans and doesn't have normal reactions to things, but really wants to "get it"? Fancy that!
C. Star Trek DS9: Odo. The weird kid relating to a perpetual outsider who doesn't fit in anywhere, not even really with his own kind? Again, fancy that!
D. Steven Universe: Connie Maheswaran. Lonely kid tired of moving around and not having any friends, who befriends a weird kid who spends most of his time with alien rock people, and is weird herself? Again, what a surprise that I identify with her.

Basically, if there's an oddball in a fandom, it's a good bet they're my favorite character.

4. do you like your name? is there another name you think would fit you better?

My given name, no. I prefer Fay.

5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?

I'm Otherkin. I don't think of myself as *being* human at all. So I'll go with "human doing" because my soul is an alien who came here to experience doing this human thing, but my personality from that lifetime bled heavily into this one. (Seriously, your average Ah'Koi Bahnis is essentially autistic compared to humans.)

6. are you religious/spiritual?

Spiritual.

7. do you care about your ethnicity?

In a sense, yes. Not likely the way the question maker meant, though. I've never liked being a ginger. I've never liked being pale. When I was a kid, before I knew about racism, I would look at my darker freckles and wish my entire skin was that color. I never really stopped thinking that way, either. I've come to accept that I am the color I am and can't change it. But you know... and I don't often discuss this because a lot of people go bugnuts when I do, but ultimately the fact that I'm Otherkin is responsible for my feelings in this regard. Because to the Ah'Koi Bahnis, skin color was more random than hair color and their feelings toward skin color were pretty much like our culture's feelings about hair color. But much less prejudiced. Like literally, they didn't really care what color they were.

So yeah, when I describe what I would *like* to see in the mirror, what I describe - dark honey-amber skin, light amber eyes, black hair, oh and my skin has darker stripes on arms, shoulder, back, sides, buttocks, and legs - isn't me being "trans-race," it's a function of my Otherkin status.

8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

Blue Oyster Cult, Evanescence, and Linkin Park.

9. are you an artist?

Yes.

10. do you have a creed?

Yes, I do.

11. describe your ideal day.

I get up, have the apartment all to myself, do some writing for a few hours, eat some good food, unwind for the second half of the day, then go to bed secure in the knowledge that it'll be the same tomorrow.

12. dog person or cat person?

I'm afraid of dogs, so cat person for sure.

13. inside or outdoors?

Inside, mostly.

14. are you a musician?

Not currently.

15. five most influential books over your lifetime.

-The Mists of Avalon - Pagan stuff.
-Stranger in a Strange Land - Polyamorous stuff.
-Earth by David Brin - Introduced me to David Brin's works, which have been a huge influence in general.
-Quantum Psychology by Robert Anton Wilson.
-Tao Te Ching
-Conversations With God by Neale Donald Walsch, even if I don't really believe most of it now.
-There was this book I had as a kid called "Coincidences," that was about weird coincidences in history. Fits in with my interest with paranormal stuff, and was part of what got me into paranormal stuff.
-Welcome To Weirdsville - A book about paranormal stuff, for kids. There's more than one book by this title, though, so it's hard to track down again.
-There was this book I stole from my dad when I was a teen, one of those Penthouse Letters books. Introduced me to erotic fiction.

That's more than five, I know. Whatever.

16. if you’d grown up in a different environment, do you think you’d have turned out the same?

I doubt it. I mean... in some ways, sure. Pretty sure I was always going to be trans. Pretty sure I was strongly inclined to become a multiple ever since I was little; in fact I think I was born to become a multiple. I believe our sexual preferences are at least strongly influenced by the circumstances of one's birth and/or genetics. And autism is something you're born with. Not the same, no, but probably very similar.

17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?

No. More of a collection of random junk I found interesting.

18. what’s your patronus?

Dunno. But if I had to pick one, I think I'd go with a raven.

19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?

If the Houses were purely what the Sorting Hat said they were, I think I'd be a Slytherin. But if I had to go to Hogwarts while Slytherin was still full of bigots and was still the black sheep of the school, I'd hope for Hufflepuff.

20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?

From those named choices, Hogwarts, I think. Post Voldemort, though.

For "somewhere else," can I choose to be in one of my own stories? Because if I could choose that, I'd want to attend Fae Springs with Dalia Ravenstone.

21. do you love easily?

Yes. Perhaps too easily.

22. list the top five things you spend the most time doing, in order.

Aside from the obvious smart-ass answers,

A. Watching Netflix.
B. Surfing on the Internet.
C. Playing games on my tablet.
D. Writing.
E. Other stuff.

23. how often would you want to see your family every year?

Pass.

24. have you ever felt like you had a “mind-meld” with someone?

Telepathy? Yeah. Mostly when I was a kid; I eventually developed a psychic sense of when she was calling me home, even if I was too far away to hear the bike horn. (This was in the days before cheap cell phones.)

Oh yeah, and I'm a telempath.

25. could you live as a hermit?

Yes. There are times when the hermit life is even appealing.

26. how would you describe your gender/sexuality?

Gender: Alien hermaphrodite, but I generally say "trans woman" because it's easier and people tend to look at me like I'm bugnuts if I tell them the truth.
Sexuality: Pansexual with a strong preference for women, polyamorous, on the asexuality spectrum because I don't get much out of sex. I prefer cuddles. Which I don't get enough of.

27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?

No. Apart from a previous question's answer regarding my feelings about my ethnicity, I'm too poor to really dress the way I'd like to. I'd dress like a Victorian style goth (or hire someone to make me clothes in the style I keep getting from my Traipah memories), I'd have the stripes I mentioned earlier hennaed onto my skin, probably dye my hair black or pink (might do pink anyway, I can get a good price on a dye job from a friend), I'd wear colored contact lenses that would make my eyes look like lizard eyes or like they were completely black, and I'd have armored rings on at least all the fingers of my left hand (and those rings would have claws or talons on them).

28. on a scale from 1 to 10, how hard is it for someone to get under your skin?

Which end of the scale is which? I'll assume 1 is easiest and 10 is hardest.

Depends on the person. But in general... strangers: 3 or 4. Friends: mostly a 6 or 7.

29. three songs that you connect with right now.

A. "Sole Survivor" by Blue Oyster Cult.
B. "Imaginary" by Evanescence.
C. "The Night" by Voltaire.

30. pick one of your favorite quotes.

"I reject your reality and substitute my own!" - Adam Savage

This was cross-posted from https://fayanora.dreamwidth.org/1416231.html
You can comment either here or there.
Tags: meme
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

  • 0 comments