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"It gets better"

I have mixed feelings about the “It gets better” thing. Like, on the one hand okay, maybe some people need to hear that because it helps them. But on the other hand there are other people it doesn’t help, and may even upset them because it’s horrible NOW and they can’t take it much longer, they want things to be better NOW.

Then too there are the people who would be better served by being told “Don’t kill yourself, that’s letting them win. Defy them by choosing life! Make your every breath, every step you take, every word you speak into a giant FUCK YOU to the bullies and the haters. Meet their hatred with disdain. Sneer at those sniveling asinine shitbags that probably still wet the bed at night, for they are slime stuck to the bottom of your shoe. People who would hate you for being gay or trans or whatever deserve nothing but their own hatred right back at them, concentrated to a laser point. And if anyone tells you you’re stooping to their level by “fighting fire with fire” you tell those idiots “YEAH ACTUALLY FIGHTING FIRE WITH FIRE IS A LEGITIMATE FIRE FIGHTING TECHNIQUE SO GO FUCK YOURSELF.”

Because that’s what I did. That’s how I survived. I took the fire of their hatred, made it my own without taking their words to heart, and used it to keep my own fire burning. So everything hurtful thing they said to me just became more kindling for the fire that is my soul. I survived by getting angry. By recognizing those worthless parasites as the scum-sucking crap sacks they are and building up my soul-fire until their pitiful barbs were like unto matches before a hurricane of flames. Which is why one of my names is Tempest.

This was cross-posted from http://fayanora.dreamwidth.org/1244771.html
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lucretiasheart
Jul. 1st, 2014 11:28 pm (UTC)
Good for you.

And-- for defying them to live you deserve an extra special Happy Birthday. I hope you continue to live in triumph!
fayanora
Jul. 2nd, 2014 03:25 am (UTC)
Thanks!
quirkytizzy
Jul. 2nd, 2014 01:19 am (UTC)
Random LJ'r, found this via Latest Posts.

I am in full agreement. Sometimes the path to healing is not this quiet, lovey dovey, ball of light of forgiveness.

Sometimes it's torching the entire path behind you with a flamethrower, screaming battle cries all the way.

Love this post!
fayanora
Jul. 2nd, 2014 03:25 am (UTC)
Yup, like this one Ot3p song says, "May the bridges I burn LIGHT MY WAY, Isolated and defiant, I WILL REMAIN." :-)

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